Day 155: “A Lesson From the Best Audience Member Ever”
When you’re so excited by life
Eager to experience it
Be a part of it
Watch it
No matter its form
Or where you sit
You’ll end up getting the best seat in the house
Day 155: “A Lesson From the Best Audience Member Ever”
When you’re so excited by life
Eager to experience it
Be a part of it
Watch it
No matter its form
Or where you sit
You’ll end up getting the best seat in the house
Day 154: “It’s Nice to Have a Friend”
The other night, my phone was dangerously low
You know, what I rely on for directions and communication with my loved ones
So I went in search of an outlet
Did I mention it was late?
After a Broadway show
So I went where everyone goes to look for an outlet
Rockefeller Center
I also had this perfect daydream where I’d walk by
And they’d say they need someone to fill a seat in the audience at SNL
And I’d say, “Sure, I don’t have anything else going on.”
You know, trying to play it cool
Well shockingly that didn’t happen
But I also couldn’t find an outlet
So I approached a worker
And asked if there was a place I could charge my phone
After a few awkward moments twiddling my thumbs
What else are you supposed to do when you don’t have your phone?
I started asking the worker questions
Learned about his life
He said he’s worked at Rockefeller Center in one capacity or another for 25 years
He said he likes the area and came to NYC in the 1980s
He said he’s never seen a Broadway show
After some time,
I asked for my phone back
Said it was great to meet him
Told him my name
I asked for his
And I said maybe I’d see him later this week when I’m back to attend some talk shows
He said that’d be wonderful
I walked away proud
Proud to have pushed my shyness to the side
To have started a convo
To have made a friend
In my family we call them TPPFs
Temporary public place friends
I make them mostly when I’m traveling
It was a fun moment of connection
Who knows, maybe I’ll see my TPPF again
Day 153: “Inspirational Incantation”
There’s no impossible
When you’re dreaming
Day 152: “Travel Ritual”
Why is it
That every time I go out of town
I fall apart before
I have to get everything done
And somehow I left everything for the last minute
As I’m writing this
I need to do the dishes
Put my clothes away
And pack
But I think I’ll just watch Secret Lives of Mormon Wives with my boyfriend
I can sleep on the bus
Day 151: “Out of Practice”
I haven’t jumped in several days
I hope I still remember how
Day 150: “I Don’t Know”
I don’t know how to be right now
Don’t know what to do
Where to look
What to say
I don’t know where I am right now
What I’m doing
Who I am
I don’t know
I should drink water
I’m getting a headache
Let me turn out the light and try to go some sleep
Day 149: “Box”
We had to go back today
To the vet
To pick up our girl
I’m glad she’s home
But it’s strange to have her life
Reduced to a box of ashes
I kiss the box
Imagining I’m kissing her
Willing her to feel it
To know I love her
To know I miss her
Day 148: “Hole”
There’s a hole in our apartment
Not a physical crater
Depression
But a space where she was
It’s empty
Flat
Sad
Quiet
Way too quiet
Everywhere I look
I want her to be there
My pillow has never felt so cold
I’ve never felt so cold
Day 147: “Acceptance”
I can accept that she had to go
But I can’t accept that she’s gone
There’s a difference